We are really excited that we will be welcoming a baby boy to our family in the beginning of July. Mark and I got to see him wiggle around this morning at my early anatomy sonogram and he looks perfect -- the size of an avocado.
Although I am feeling really good now, this pregnancy has been a lot tougher than with Lyla. Like with Lyla, I didn't suffer from morning sickness, but the fatigue this time was nearly debilitating. I was also battling migraines, allergies and a sinus infection throughout the first trimester. I'm also a nervous wreck in the beginning. My anxiety levels were on full alert and nothing can really ease that for me except for cold hard science. Poor Mark had been dealing with a monster until our genetic testing results revealed a healthy baby boy. And let's not forget mother's guilt. It seemed that the more tired I felt, the more Lyla wanted my attention. I felt awful climbing into bed instead of playing with her on the floor. Coincidentally or not, during the first trimester, Lyla went through a stage of nasty tantrums and meltdowns. Both have thankfully disappeared as my energy has reemerged.
And speaking of Lyla, she is in blissful denial of the baby at this point. First, she told me her brother is not a baby boy because "boys can't be babies." So, for awhile, she insisted it was a baby girl. Lately, when I ask her what is in my belly she says "nothing" (a new favorite word, pronounced "muffin") because "the baby ran away." She ripped up the first sonogram picture I brought home, but I'm trying not to read too much into that. And if you see me, don't get too excited with the congratulations because Lyla stomps off in a huff if I get too much attention over the baby (did I say the meltdowns were gone?!?!).
It is going to be an eventful year with lots of change and big decisions to make. I'm nervous about the future but eager to watch our family grow.
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